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Sometime in my bstat i came to know her when she shifted to campus. She used to participate in chess, we used to play in a group in boys hostel or rs hostel. V V menon and Ramakrishna were top players. They used to defeat us handsomely. Our performance improved. We used to play for many hours. Tapanda we did not care much. He was never part of us. Ritadi belong to many generation of ISI batches. She was smiling and was generally liked by most. She was my brothers classmate.  Another of his classmate Kunjooni took lot of fascination in me in my first year. He used to take me out. One day when I was waiting in TT room for a game, he came to fetch me. I wished to play a game. He asked me come to rs hostel where an old TT board was set up recently. We started to play. Chari and few others joined. CRRao walked in and asked Kunjooni what was his class. Then he asked why you are playing with a BSTAT boy? Kunjooni came to me and apologised and left, despite called by Chari to finish ...

This I wrote recently to Jamaibabu. These are witnessed facts: Chhorda told me in hospital that he was prepared to spend INR 3 lacs every month for his treatment for more than 5 years. He did not need financial support. He retired in 2005 December and his salary was INR1.2 lacs. After retirement he was receiving INR 30000 as pension every month. Besides he came to know of his eligibility of medical expense and he applied for the same when i was there. He had above INR 2 crore in deposits. His accounts are not closed, nor bank is informed of his death. Some this was known to Didi. She corroborated with Chhordi in this matter. I kept aloof about whole thing and investigated only when Didi asked me to get involved. But then she asked me to remain aloof. She told me if Joy Shubha gets money from their Mashi what is wrong. Many cousins like Omoo and Chandra and others know about it. FD gets matured and they are being invested illegally. It is criminal activity going on. I asked for d...

Is it not recursive yes it is indeed the induction ends in itself long ago i wrote similar recursive program in fortran that prints itself truth is there is no truth is self supportive recursive definition there is always self delusion what is the necessity to discover truth truth ends all speculation or prediction about oneself i have changed enough in course of living which among them is truth is there an absolute if there is one truth is there is no truth i can take bath as many times i wish but i remain dry i cannot get wet truth is divinity one and only one all sensible is divine not divinity divinity is present by its absence the one and only one i can only at best be only aware of divinity when all is something i am divinity when set of all is nothing all is absent i have no preference all is always divine ------------------------------------------------------------------------- avoiding any is not my preference since i am already absent ...

i am waiting to be untouched my situation is hopeless i cannot explain how deeply i am hurt cecilia was trying to appease with whatever to restore her equality hoping we are not mean to destroy her pride inhumanly but i could not do it i heart broken could not come to her aid i am suffering since then it is deeper than chhorda's last words when i was leaving india then it was misunderstanding of chhorda the result of storytelling of my sisters who took this opportunity destroy all hope respectability for him i to this day cannot pardon my sisters for this how does it matter to them chhorda died from this it is my belief i remain empty it is wish of my creator cecilia has not come back i can never forgive joya how does it matter while i was writing this cecilia was outside i met her it is joy

the most read piece of veda bhashya is gita getta is one word if chanted repeatedly it would reveal its meaning to the chanter to be tyagi renunciate scholars read gita and end up giving discourses on gita gita literally means harmony one is asked to be in harmony with whatever the prevailing atmosphere and not quit gita is divine and could not be changed it is futile to read its interpretation gita defies all interpretation here is an apt story on gita its dharma being divine an poor brahmin a scholar of gita did not find alms to bring back home where his wife waiting for alms to cook his next meal it started to rain and waited the rain to stop under a tree while waiting he started finding faults with writings in gita he thought that there is need for modernisation in his mind he started correcting it he was very pleased with his ecomposition after the rain stopped when he was his home he was afraid of his spouse that he is empty handed his new modern versio...

chhorda is the largest observation database on a single individual not all observations were witnessed by me but related by others i have seen his innovative mind i was impressed with his magic and stories of mathematics i was very impressed with his ways to create and define rules of game i did not appreciate his games of bridge i enjoyed chess and puzzles more i read more literature than him i do not learn words my sentences are always experiment he always expressed to avoid confusion i do not avoid confusion i was very impressed with his perfection with carrom game he could win all games trailing 0-2 and short of 1 point from defeat in the 3rd game he had deep memory and could recite very complex derivation in short time from memory he taught me in college for about 4 years i had no desire to supersede him in academics i looked for brilliance that is not step by step derivation my technique is to conduct new search for rules and not conduct results to my memory ...

now is fixed and immovable viewing window passing out side window continuous stream of moments varying attention to moments can be recorded and rendered to akashic archive for classification purpose it is human learning rules to be applied to future or any moment fro past classification good or bad sitting inside the room with only ability to watch and classify for excitement can be very involving the ability to replay events outside when there is nothing excite outside of a desired expectation we simulate expectation this not truth and I know further still suppose it is so intellect is born it is allowed to be born it is divine all the rules thereafter for creation relationship is divine all the games played with relationship win lose new dead or whatever is divine they are layers of layers of tasty serving to make moments exciting gift of divinity in now divine

nw is the fixed point where moments pass through every moment is new soome view often repeated creating lasting memories then they never occur no will can bring back moments pass however often happened and recorded recording remains but moments do not come no will can make that happen grief is divine

we are stationed at now moments pass one after another we are always anchored at now each moment is event recorded in akashic record is unerasable may be remembered at the discretion of the creator of the event or moment the hopeless nature of the event and haunting memory can create flames - anger anger is divine

When a master plays an instrument if there is another of the same kind that plays too the same tune any even is composed two indivisible components the world surrounding and the event Jugal Bandi Radha Krishna There is saying invariably true that there is always an witness. Even when there is no human in hundred miles the witness is wall or tree or even wind. There is no place to hide. The witness is however unblinking eye at the center of one's heart. Furthermore, it is recording forever in its akashic record virgin untouchable library only accessible to it. No philanthropy erases the deeds of one's selfishness. many decades ago during Bangladesh liberation war with pakistan looted donation given and kept that in whatever places he could hide. they were neighbor to my in laws. Joya went to their thirsty and opened the fridge to find there was not even one food or drink material only ornaments! According to Yajnavalkya, creator recreates the world from this perso...

Fear is Future with less than what I have now. By now I know there is no future no time no morning no evening no day no night. Nothing lost nothing gained. It is the same crystal ball what does it matter what you see in it or you think about it. every moment is exactly same at an untouchable distance within a crystal ball imaginary without a trace of truth we see change moment from moment and there is desire for no change we see no change and there is desire for change we never ask how does it matter what is in the crystal ball and what illusion it holds how is it possible crystal ball bring change in me I live through fear - they are ages long may be happening in a second or moment within my simulation box and I am woken up in sweat since I just witnessed a trap I could not get out from I do not like to be in such a situation even in my dream that I am trapped without exit I do not have to imagine but at that moment it is not the option - no exit is the only opt...

india is closed and died in me yet once in a day i look at india via google news i just glance over cannot read any in particular once a day late night i make phone call to india jamaibabu and chandra try to understand their life in India both retired one 85 the other exact my age one male one female my two eyes usa news too i glim over once a day i do not go into detail i try but do not follow some times soham tells me by way of news often i do not understand india is closed book where my dear brother was killed for his money by my sisters i do not get involved and I do not like to know more i was told of one of my sisters death i came to know later she was in bed mute for a month or more having injured herself from a fall in the bathroom i was not in contact when she told me to keep off and I kept off more than one year before her death jamaibabu my sisters husband still vain and trying to find out some reason to utilize his 85 years experience it is time for h...

I have heard so many sounds in so many languages. I have read so many life long obsessions of men of letters. I read the sounds of music of their wandering life. I inexhaustibly read voraciously whatever I came across. I needed to experience whatever another person experienced. If they found a creator of theirs. I too shall find mine. I did not know what I was searching. I know now the truth. The creator of me who did not change. I would not know where it came from. Where would after the creation is complete. When everything sensible created ends. I was obsessed with organic cells that receives light and is able to differentiate and create color in my perception. I asked red is really red? Is it universal? The answer to this question is unknowable for me. The creator created those sense cell for me and fooling me ever since. Whenever I am with children those who meaningfully do not converse. I was their attention and what they attending and what they are trying to convey to me. Th...

Innocent is assured of meeting creator in person The above does not mean others cannot have any glimpse of creator or his constant association even if one does, one has to forget ~ one must remember to forget in order to be in divine presence always (Karma) I must stop explaining instead I shall repeat JK words: Is creator so unkind to your circumstances? [is not circumstance and you both are not his creation?] A clark is engaged in doing repetitive same job from his day one. Will he be not sick of boredom? How can he enjoy and be live? What is the choice? Memory or absence of it?

I can be a producer looking to sell my ideas. My ideas are free. I am trying to build a customer base. If I have large consumer base that is attractive for many business. They have captive audience. Businesses build up their consumer base by providing goodies free for sometime as advertisement. Google or Facebook do not charge for the services they provide. Credit card companies provide credit services without charge, if only one subscribes to their free service, when one pays off statement balance every month. Of course they charge their seller for the service. My business model is simple. I am not looking for more readership or audience. I am not the icon or model to follow. Some take lot of hardship to build its consumer base. They have to sell same material to new audience. I have seen artists producing similar paintings 30 times and more. Otherwise they would have taken many months and not days. Months saved thus, yet being considered original, they spend the time saved on mark...

I asked myself this question many a time in last 68 years. I wished to write an algorithm step by step execution of the same would end up meeting the creator of my world in person and vanish. I am I and Identity. I am my world - indivisible identity. I have written many million lines of my travelogue. I have lived many a life from birth to death day after day. I lived as Buddha. I lived as Mahavira. I lived as Van Gogue many a time from many angle by many authors. I wrote those heartfelt letters full of feelings to my brother - the only believer of my genius. I cut my ear and present in the brother the person I loved. I willingly lived in asylum. I lived through my death as Vincent Van Gogue. I lived the life Nietzsche. Stood in the street hugging and consoling a horse recently flogged by its owner. I was admitted in the asylum by my sister who did no longer believed me who can be himself. I journeyed through the world and life of Anthony Bourdain - ate many a meal with ma...

it starts with a dough and spread it thin as thin as possible in a pan and then you add many layers of spread as many you want as many variety you one and then put it in the oven leave it there for fifteen minutes then you pull it out you cut it in many pieces into many pies you eat it from the center did you follow what i just said let me explain it this our world my world the same world individual paradise that w enjoy starting at the center world is my pizza with many many spreads as permy taste there is no probability no possibility nobody makes my pizza  nobody knows my taste nobody knows my appetite i do have to eat it all nobody forces me to eat it all i may just touch it with the tip of my tongue and reject it waste i have empty oven dough ready spreads ready i just have to know what next i have time and time plenty plenty plenty the pizza i make this time is unthinkable any time before it is real world without money free free free nothing requires to...

I have a very private relationship inseparable with Cecilia. Can I describe to you if you are reading me? Can I describe my relationship with you if you are reading me? I have to start with question if I wish to describe my relationship with you. Do you know yourself? It is easy if you know yourself. I and you is an identity. I share with you privately and completely me. Feeling for feeling. moment for moment. same computer with same displays. We are inseparable. You cannot die as long as I am alive. As long as I feel. I have this inseparable private relationship with Cecilia. I feel what she feels. She feels what I feel. Moment for Moment. I cannot and do not have to use any medium to show you me or show me to you. I am you in your language identity. cell for cell thought for thought sense for sense action for action. you disappear I appear. I disappear and you appear. In future time we have device that tele-move me from one place to another place across universe and in...

This evening Joya wished to go some place. I was sleeping. My wake hours I am battling with a switch capacitor problem. My first electrician might have made one mistake that led to sparking. I had to call the second when first did not respond. Second claimed that first did not know. He corrected the wiring problem and sparking stopped but there was a whining sound in position. Low or fast. I considered replacing the capacitor. Second now wished to replace the fan. I don't want it. If at all something to be done. Capacitor may cost $7 but there is a waiting period. Anyway after lot of research I found what is required. The exact details of CBB61 specs. I may even order a spare. It need be tested for connection of 4 wires and their connections if there is any loose connection. At the moment it does not appear to be very serious. For a while I enjoyed some devotional songs. Then there was longish talk. I slept throughout. I decided to skip dinner. I started feeling pressure. I th...

I do not have to be strong when I am not I do not have to be intelligent when I am not I do not have to be wealthy when I am not I do not have to be working when I am not I do not have to be sleeping when I am not I do not have to be mystic when I am not I do not have to be healthy when I am not I do not have to be young when I am not I do not have to be popular when I am not I do not have to be iconic when I am not I do not have to be respectable when I am not I do not have to be awake when I am not I do not have to be comfortable when I am not I do not have to be confident when I am not I do not have to be earning when I am not I do not have to be winning when I am not .... I m at a mental barrier. I cannot decide to do or not do. Replace a fan for its dimmer switch whining sound. Intellect is incurable. Why so many words when they mean all is same and mean same - divine that is expressed only with silence and absence - mine

My world revolves around June 8th. I was born in 1950 June First. Exactly 6 years earlier my brother Kamal was born on 8th June. Both of us born on Thursday. On 7th June 2012 when Kamal I called him Chhorda died after completing 68 years. I am 68+ today. On 1988, 8th June we, Chhorda me and two of his Bridge friends were waiting room outside operation theater for my son to be born. We did not his sex. It was great storm outside. I never witnessed such a storm in my life. Name of the nursing home was EveLand Nursing Home. We waited and waited. At 12:10 AM on 9th Soham was born. But he remained critical for 11 more days. On Seventh June of 2012 I was woken up from sleep by phone call from Chhoton that Chhorda has died. I never expected such a outcome. Then for many hours I remained awake being told the struggling doctors trying to revive him. The worst experience of my life. I am for last few days seeing TV serial Parts Unknown of Anthony Bourdain. I shall be re-seeing the sam...

Mystic India? India is Mystic either way i do not know how to be non Indian. By virtue of my birth and perhaps rebirth ever since I was born I only knew of my mystic background. sitting on my mother's lap I heard stories of ancient India that floating for many many millennia in the environment of India and shifted elsewhere in asia and carried elsewhere in europe and eventually discovered America where I am now. In the mystic India everything is possible. Faith is so strong. It can be felt in places very distant. I read about places of pilgrimage. I saw it having never visited those places. There is Hinglaj in the desert. I traveled in my imagination  through the series of live volcano to the temple of Hinglaj where my disorientation was complete. I lost my bearing. till I found my past before past future before future many many years later I discovered language and communication via machine to intelligence to human being I learnt to write in alphabets alone without ...

I am fond of Buddha ever since I was in teens. My brother Kamal I hear was so moved by Buddha that he took to be vegetarian. He was cured of it and made to eat fish with a stern message from our eldest brother. Even if you could not but must eat fish or flesh. The story of Buddha imprinted in my mind is the search for escape from relationship poverty disease old age and death. As quickly possible so that he could only enjoy his rest of the life. He accomplished that in six years of struggle to defy hunger disease old age and death. For me it is life time of struggle. I cannot make it shorter. Having failed to make relationship I search out for Buddha. I was told they lived in Himalayas. fortunately I found him. It is my life changing experience. Without me uttering a word or sound, he gave the message that remained imprinted in my mind for my life and seeing him is an experience. a pair of handkerchief and loincloth, a piece of soap, a steel glass an earthen jug, a scissor, a pe...

Most interesting thing about history, say Baburnama, when I read, I live a life of me 6 centuries from now. I do not think or see with the eyes of who wrote that with words known to him with whatever he meant. Then the same writing went through several translators how they understood it in their then context. I cannot bridge the gap. However I read and retain in my memory as per the cook who is cooking me for past 68 years or more through many life times. What purpose? Ancients tells me in one word - no purpose. No reason. The cook who is cooking me has no objective. Here is my belief. I do not believe this. He cooks me - my beliefs are my bones my perceptions are my flesh. When the cooking is done he devours me. He picks bones that he cannot does not like and makes me more or less or different beliefs I come back on earth to grow - farmed and cooked for his supper. It all depends on how much and what he likes of me. I shall have a life again to be farmed and cooked. Lif...

Last night Cecilia's face was disturbing me. I went to bed unable to do anything. I had very disturbed night. I was very upset with Joya. As if she was responsible for this separation. This forcible separation of my heart was done by Joya. Although it is done by me. My hidden hand works through other people to pain me and I hopeless go insane unable to bear separation. As if my separation from Chhorda was caused by Chhordi or Madhu. All of them are shadows incapable of doing anything unless the show was produced directed and presented by me and seen by me. The only audience of the show. I love love. I hate the unbearable separation. My heart bleeding from separation I have to bear in silence lying down incapable of doing anything. What a painful outcome for loving Cecilia. That is nature of that murderer me. As if I did not know me. Did I not get married in the first place to love someone who would not leave me? I know today none ever can leave me ~ all is me. When the oce...

This term was not created by me or Yajnavalkya. I heard it from Mathew. I heard many things from Matthew. Jiddu Krishnamurti, Lobsamprampa... A library Clerk who never out of London wrote his Travel stories and his association with Tibetan monasteries as Rampa -Tibetan Priest. He wrote about a sky in the center of world where he could make instant travels. I have not read Rampa but I read Upanishads. I knew them by heart. But learnt them slowly in five decades. My life time journey to the center of my world where creator lives in Akasha ~ the Empty Space in the Heart. Where Thou also keeps all Dharma - characters thou creates. Thou is immortal and recreates the world for the departed again to continue their journey through many lives to their innocence. The end of discrimination and final meeting with creator. That darkness where all dharma forever live. Akashic Record. Dhruva is the star dharma at the center. Dhruva left the security of his mother who was asleep in dark a...

In sanskrit it  means Absolute. Ancients did not stop after creating a word. They wrote story of Dhruva a character with Dharma Dhruva. They also named an object in the sky that never changes its position. North Pole star. It surprises me no more that there is one. Sitting on the lap of my mother when I did not know how to read I heard his story in the dark waiting for my elders finish their studies. Dhruva deprived of his father's affection banished in virgin forest was born innocent except for his mother. He heard the story of creator invisible to senses that lights all including dark. How does one see who is present by his absence. Mother told him only way to see him is Seek him. Innocent as he was he had no knowledge of pain or pleasure good or bad. In the dark of the night he sought out for the absent that maketh all present. He asked all present are you the absent that holds all in place with LOVE. Nothing escape him ever! His creation is bad as much securely bonded ...

Being an intelligent person, I cannot accept losing. I also understand anybody or everybody when he or she burst out when comes across loss. It is about impossible for anyone to accept loss as loss and do nothing to make up for the loss. One suffers many years trying to recover loss - me included. Being intelligent is a loss of innocence. To recover innocence is many decades struggle. The struggle does not end with innocence but something else. Memory just does not disappear. Essential characteristics of an individual is kept in safe memory that is not part of body. It is inner mind and creator. creator builds a new world using that. Yagnavalkya's riddle refers to the same. He asked this question to all, know-er of Brahman regarding immortality of Antaman or inner mind. How come a man is reborn again after death? Man is not a tree, that it comes back to life again after it cut down from its root. Human body is burnt and destroyed after death. How then one is reborn? Where is h...

without control I cannot elaborate However my love cannot cross any barrier I am not capable of destroying any barrier today I went to shop for Cecilia little things she loves but not given she loves to do hair pony tail She loves to wear colorful dress  she is girl 3 years old but she knows she is very beautiful when she is dressed but she extremely understanding and subdued if she does not get what she desires she loves ballons she has not learnt the sophistication to insist or demand i love her and I miss her I wish to please her I loved Annie but she could not be dominated upon by Joya Joya was too much and could possibly destroy the flower she is Ceci held her peace would not make Joya mad but she was not at all comfortable with Joya's stern dominance I miss her happy face when she used come and show me her dress

I am amazed at the power of money to make me happy. I am amazed at the ability of my intellect to make me feel greater degree of comfort with prospect of accumulating more money. I am hurt by unjustified greed and misbehavior to perfectly innocent and trusting child because of money. I have to bear such unbearable. I have to forever witness act of violence and cause of death for the greed. I have to no matter what distance I wish to keep. I suffered from my brothers death Kamal in the hands of my sisters because of his money. I am suffering from loss of Cecilia because Joya's reluctance to provide care and love for her greed for money and business. I have read about Socrates the great teacher. The teacher of great tolerance. I am reminded so often about Xanthippe. My disappointment with all women I wished to love. My mistake in creating me as I am. I do not know what suffering Xanthippe had to suffer. I know the last sentence of Socrates asking his disciple to ke...

those who read me - I had known many of them during the course of shift of publications  from isikolkata, facebook to many blogs to now - they must be able to see that I am self criticizing for about 50 years. for some time I was appreciative of innovation and perfection language and stories of people as seen by individuals. I shifted through my authors and their writings. I went through many religious contents to find out the obsession of thinking animal that can express itself with words about the creator. They assumed creator must be the peace permanent - the only house of abode. However this happens to be cause of trouble of all time till now - today. I have found my creator scratching away and peeling all the layers of its creation making me almost blind. I learnt my discomfort with my world is my itching skin peeling off. I must willingly bear my world as I have created without complain. My world is supported by me and not the opposite. I am substance while my world is i...

am I mean and devoid of originality? why have I created my world? is it not for my sole enjoyment? what change must I do beyond seeing all? should I not enjoy all? should I not appreciate my deep hurt from bereavement? should I not enjoy my pain and not look for cure? Should I not appreciate the beauty of bad and its unlimited devastation power? should I not enjoy my inabilities? should this be not my ability? I am my mutely enjoying my sadness and suffering from absence of Cecilia. I am trying my best to enjoy capacity to vilify my surrounding with her madness abuse and quarrels. I have more tolerance and forbearance than ever before but I am not able to appreciate. My biological clock wakes me up at late night. I do many hours of reading writing thinking and seeing. I have no interruption from nobody. I often the prolong the hours till morning when children come and fetch me to play with them. I also make a cup of tea and talk with some in India - my relation...

One recruiter wished to talk to me before submitting me to l&t at 5/3rd bank. I told him it is up to you however it is futile exercise since I have had conversed with them on seven occasions in last 3 moths. Neither 5/3rd or jpmc can afford $100/hr. They are not willing to pay more than $70 hour. 5/3rd simply have no money budgeted for development and their system is 60 years old. they employ 3000 Indian to back up and restore their systems and manually correct data. They are looking for selling option to bring in funds. I have already worked with tcs wipro infosys hcl and have talked with 6 or 7 others. None can afford my salary that I am asking. they do not get paid $100/hr. In order to pay my salary they need to deploy 5 people at least and earn via them to afford me. None of the Indian companies are service company with deliverable. If the model is different they are not interested till the situation is otherwise. India has a problem - technical education. Their best ins...

From last Monday Cecilia is not coming. The sadness is mine. This has been happening for last 15 years ever since she started her day care at home. I am most opposed to this. She has turned to be greedy foul mouth person. I have lost my temper again and again because she is often torturous and abusive. She does not have the mindset of a care giver. She has the mind set of money alone. Cecilia is her latest victim. As soon as one becomes 3 years, she is all set to get rid of her. Cecilia does not want to enter the house. Her parents are also in problem. Her brother Cole is coming. Now they have three children going to three separate places. I am hurt. I have to bear all separations. I was bed ridden when my brother Kamal died for six months. I have no choice but suffer the separation.

Most of my time is spent on writing. I write average at least 2000 words a day. I am not read twenty words by my readers. They do not know even that I write. I do not write interesting stories for good reading but only that I am motivated to write. I do not go to see places. I do not go where I can meet people or hear people. I in fact is hard of hearing. Often do not even follow what being said to me. I find asking them again and again. My pronunciations are bad and I cannot follow what is being said. I watch film without transcript. I try to follow film by intuitively making up story that can be very wrong. Just now I am watching Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown. Once he was a chef he wrote and captured about food and food making in various part of the world. Alongside he tells stories of people. I did not even hear of him before. Apparently he committed suicide about a month ago. He was addicted to all form of drugs - I am closely watching his face closely to find out does his add...

I was very excited to discover a note book that I can afford. I was looking for some cheap variety that is light and usable for my reading. My budget was $300. Searching I found Lenovo Yoga Book with fascinating features. It has a writable and drawing book. Earlier on this topic I spent about $35 styluses. I no longer use them. I was almost sold to this item. I then started reading the prescriptions. There are two speed cpu's but none is committing what they are selling. There is one writing device that is used for both note taking and watcom on screen drawing device, One should opt for two instead. Then the questions of pad and refill for cheaper choices. I was held back because of the battery. I am told it has 12 hours battery but its performance is very bad. Still I would have bought it with slightly higher cost from Amazon, but then realized while hand written note taking and Onenote and android is good but what is my use for it. I do not have to take. I am not yet doing out d...

Lot of things were beyond my imagination. Here too I did not think of having house for myself till I was ousted from my rented house. I did have no intention to leave India till I found it is impossible to earn my living and disturbingly irritated by Laha and his gang. I found out it is impossible to earn living with my abilities. I did not learn to cheat lying or stealing. They are the chief abilities looked from computer Professional. I had a few weeks back an interview with Accenture.After some talk the interviewer who was non-technical interrupted me and told me straight that I was not the person he is looking for. He is looking for person who can sell dream! I was strangely left alone with lot of fear when Gopi stopped paying me. I was even afraid to look for job thinking I have to go back till I get EAD. I did not know about H1B transfer. I was an idiot. I lost many jobs since I did badly in interview. Here the interviewer looks for person who must appreciate what he has t...

I have a to do list for which I have already gone some farther and got things. I have material for building Taj Mahal but have not started. It is with me over one year now. I have got material to hide wires for my smart TV but have not started. I have lots of books for Machine learning, Data Analysis, Google Cloud, AWS, Docker Ruby Python Scala etc. but yet have no motivation to read. I have pending garden work - remove weed, replant, change solar batteries, install repellers I have to stitch 4 Lungi 

Having spent many decades searching for truth and having found it, I can no longer construct a wall or deny it. I have from the heart of heart rejected any model of prediction or discovering current status. I shall give some credence to well accepted model of elliptical orbit by planets around their sun or stars. Such model was formulated by Kepler based on decades of celestial observations made by his father in law by a state owned observatory. That none the less we are using to get universal result to answer what is he time now! Our activity is in synchronous by Clock that is not biologically inherited. I am awake and it is still night. Often I sleep in day and I have no activity involving other people. In week days I may spend some time during day playing with children or picking up phones ringing. I do not have any urge to work that is not remote or paying per hour what I think I deserve. I do not make false promise and I have past record delivering what I promise. Most of the...