Sadhu

This evening Joya wished to go some place. I was sleeping. My wake hours I am battling with a switch capacitor problem. My first electrician might have made one mistake that led to sparking. I had to call the second when first did not respond. Second claimed that first did not know. He corrected the wiring problem and sparking stopped but there was a whining sound in position. Low or fast. I considered replacing the capacitor. Second now wished to replace the fan. I don't want it. If at all something to be done. Capacitor may cost $7 but there is a waiting period.

Anyway after lot of research I found what is required. The exact details of CBB61 specs. I may even order a spare. It need be tested for connection of 4 wires and their connections if there is any loose connection. At the moment it does not appear to be very serious.

For a while I enjoyed some devotional songs. Then there was longish talk. I slept throughout. I decided to skip dinner. I started feeling pressure. I thought that I would make early exit. I no longer have my faith in correct prediction of urgency. Several hosts came to ask me start dinner. I was very reluctant. Anyway I went to toilet to release my pressure. I tasted some sweet and a coffee. I returned home.

Sadhu has come to US seeking donation required for good living in India. He was telling that his association is required to relieve the pain of living family life.

I asked Sudip not to ever talk to me. He sought me out started discussing his project. I just got away. I exchanged few words with Sipradi's husband. I exchanged nods with some. I forgotten the names of many known faces.

I am struggling with my intellect sleep is my relief.

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