who do I represent

those who read me - I had known many of them during the course of shift of publications  from isikolkata, facebook to many blogs to now - they must be able to see that I am self criticizing for about 50 years. for some time I was appreciative of innovation and perfection language and stories of people as seen by individuals. I shifted through my authors and their writings. I went through many religious contents to find out the obsession of thinking animal that can express itself with words about the creator. They assumed creator must be the peace permanent - the only house of abode.

However this happens to be cause of trouble of all time till now - today.

I have found my creator scratching away and peeling all the layers of its creation making me almost blind. I learnt my discomfort with my world is my itching skin peeling off. I must willingly bear my world as I have created without complain. My world is supported by me and not the opposite. I am substance while my world is illusion.

My world can never be changed. Time has stood still from beginning of time and shall remain still to the end of time.

I cannot change me and I can change nothing.

Money knowledge religion country time all have there separate world and they do not intersect.

Peace is at the heart of individual and that is permanent unchangeable and absolute. Its inner product with any identified world is nothing. Illusion of world a lie forever.

peace at heart is absolute. Illusion is never able to touch Peace - its substance is its absence in all world.

I cannot but represent peace - not by way of words - by my absence in all worlds - however container of all of them.

I am the glue that keep world in place with their ever expansion and separate despite all incompatibility disharmony and contradictions; if they by my choice disappear I recreate them from my unforgettable memory.

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