sadness is mine

From last Monday Cecilia is not coming. The sadness is mine.

This has been happening for last 15 years ever since she started her day care at home. I am most opposed to this. She has turned to be greedy foul mouth person. I have lost my temper again and again because she is often torturous and abusive. She does not have the mindset of a care giver. She has the mind set of money alone.

Cecilia is her latest victim. As soon as one becomes 3 years, she is all set to get rid of her. Cecilia does not want to enter the house. Her parents are also in problem. Her brother Cole is coming. Now they have three children going to three separate places.

I am hurt. I have to bear all separations.

I was bed ridden when my brother Kamal died for six months. I have no choice but suffer the separation.

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