I hate losing

Being an intelligent person, I cannot accept losing. I also understand anybody or everybody when he or she burst out when comes across loss. It is about impossible for anyone to accept loss as loss and do nothing to make up for the loss. One suffers many years trying to recover loss - me included.

Being intelligent is a loss of innocence. To recover innocence is many decades struggle. The struggle does not end with innocence but something else. Memory just does not disappear. Essential characteristics of an individual is kept in safe memory that is not part of body. It is inner mind and creator. creator builds a new world using that.

Yagnavalkya's riddle refers to the same. He asked this question to all, know-er of Brahman regarding immortality of Antaman or inner mind. How come a man is reborn again after death? Man is not a tree, that it comes back to life again after it cut down from its root. Human body is burnt and destroyed after death. How then one is reborn? Where is human's root?

Know-er of Brahman answers - That.

That is so much in control - nothing can happen unless willed by the same. All movement all thoughts all events are entirely remote control.

Nothing can ever be undone. All is that and nothing is That! Every moment is entirely new and That. No moment can be unseen. No moment can be forgotten even when not seen again.

This is the reality. It is absolute!

That makes me as me. That makes you as you. That makes them as them. That is no reason but answer for all question. I am optionless.

I am That. no blame no shame no fear no pain no hate no love no choice - all is there none can be denied or eliminated.

It is always dream it is always true.

I have written billion words on God and its Dharma - source and destination of me and all. Location known. Destination Known. It is at my heart and I do not have to search in any other location or individual in time. It is indeed creator of all and absolute. Inflexible and cannot be motivated to change to be something and not everything and not see all or do all or think all. Having revealed everything about himself he still is unknown. He is past - all of it. He is future all of it. He is present all of it. I am absent and he is ever present. He ultimate and absolute. I may keep observing his creation of every moment and I cannot help but notice without choice but I will not know anything more about that. I cannot!!!!

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